7.28.2013

wander.

I've been plenty busy as of late.  Busy working, busy writing, busy mowing (do NOT get me started).

All the while, I've been rounding into shape, reestablishing and then concentrating on maintaining fitness, fiddling with fueling and tinkering with my workouts trying to be at my very best for some upcoming endeavors.  I've consulted experts, Googled and Googled some more, looked at the watch, tracked my performance, if haphazardly.

I can't say how successful I've been and I anxiously await the proof-flavored taste of the pudding that will be served, ready or not, come mid-August.

A reexamination of the last few months, despite their being incredibly busy, can't help but reveal small pockets of time when another run could have been added to the schedule or one mile more, or two, or ten, might have been tacked on the end of another.  Yes, I could have gone longer, certainly faster.  Sleep would have happened just as easily an hour later.  The haze of another early rise would've cleared had I just shaken it off and gotten moving.

I want to be my best.  I really do.

Not sure, though, that having done EVERY single thing possible to get there from a running standpoint would have actually resulted in ME being my best on all other fronts.  The mind, mine at least, has a funny way of checking out and taking with it some of the strength of the body.

In addition to all else that is going on, I've been making an effort to remember to read too, to remind myself of how others select and polish words, to marvel at how skilled artisans are able to arrange those selections in such mesmerizing patterns.

While doing so, I revisited one of my favorite books of the last few years, Martin Dugard's To Be a Runner (seriously, if you run, mentor, coach, parent, draw breath, this is an author whom I strongly encourage you to seek out:   http://www.martindugard.com/).

I could quote the book ad nauseum, as there is wisdom and beauty on every page, but here is a passage most fitting in the context of my preceding comments:

"One of the great downfalls of the modern running movement is how anal and joyless some of its leading voices have made it.  Think of me as that great voice in the wilderness that says it's okay to have fun out there.

Throw the logbook away.  Stop pausing your watch at stoplights.  Go right when you meant to go left.

Wander."

Thank you, great voice in the wilderness.

Over the next few weeks, the remainder of the year and all life long, I intend to wander and I look forward to doing so with friends, old and new, with those that are always never more than a few miles away and others seldom seen.

Let the wandering commence.

7.18.2013

ya' dig?

 People often talk about lives passing before their eyes in the bracing moment of realization just ahead of a car accident or some other well-this-is-it event.  I'm pretty convinced that all of that playing back of life actually occurs after the fact as adrenaline races its way through the bloodstream and reminds you that "hey, that was one of those times" that just such a thing is supposed to have happened.

As I was rolling ass over end on the descent from Green Mountain on the Ranger Trail just above Boulder earlier this week, the only thing that flashed in front of me was a lot of dirt, too many rocks for a comfortable landing and a fleeting glance at some sparse trees and the valley below.  I may have also, for a microsecond, caught sight of one Sean McCoy who is developing a nasty habit of getting himself a good look at me falling over, puking or wandering out into the world without my pants on (a very different story, I assure you).

I'd taken a serious digger in my attempt to chase down our pack leader, Jon Webb, as he flexed his mountain-living muscle and left us other two stragglers behind.

Just a few short hours later, I'd be on a plane home.  Daddy went to Boulder and all I got was this lousy collection of cuts, scrapes and bruises. 


Maybe that wasn't all I got.

As is always the case, I also managed to collect another precious fistful of memories and the cache of good vibes that is time spent with friends up, up above the fray.

On Monday, I'd risen from bed ahead of my 4:30 AM alarm, hoping that the not quite 3 hours of sleep I'd eked out on the heels of my flight's delayed arrival at Denver International Airport the night before would be enough to get me through the day.

My sense is that the active folks of Boulder are up and at it pretty early, but not so early that I saw another soul as I climbed in the rental car and invested the twenty minutes required to drive up Canyon Boulevard to the hamlet of Nederland and gain another 3,000 feet more altitude on what my lowland lungs are accustomed.

There I met Jonathan who had me follow him a few more miles to the Hessie Trailhead just beyond the ski-style shanties of Eldora.  At roughly 9,000 feet, the thin air immediately shamed me for my recent complaining about the heat and humidity back at my home base of just over 400 feet.  It may have been a little light on oxygen, but the air sure tasted good.  There were a few cars parked at the trailhead, a trailhead I was informed was a buzzy-busy one on weekends, but we had the place to ourselves at that hour of the morning.

It had rained overnight and during a couple of preceding days, adding extra moisture to the snow melt from storms that had continued dumping wintry weather into late April and even earliest May.  Jonathan and I played catch up on life and our kids with just a word or two of work.  Mostly, we just soaked up the beauty of a misty morning in the mountains.  A mule deer doe and fawn lifted heads as we passed but otherwise paid no mind.  Crows and magpies went about morning chores, likely wondering what all the huffing and puffing from the bearded guy was all about.

My guide pointed out numerous trailheads and referenced peaks both near and distant, many of which, unfortunately, couldn't be made out in the lingering fog.  The wildflowers were abundant and beautiful in spite of their colors being muted by the low light.  We crossed over the swollen creek a time or two on handy footbridges before having to choose a spot to fjord back across the thundering cascade to reach the return trail.


As I stepped into the frigid water to follow Jonathan to the far side, I discovered that I'd punched a small hole in my left shin while clumsily climbing over a downed pine tree.  It would be just the first of many scrapes, as things turned out, and I paid it little mind.

After a leisurely five or six miles, we said reluctant goodbyes and made our separate ways back to civilization, both certain we'd picked the right way to start our days.

That night after a full day's worth of product line reviews and business discussions, I slept fantastically, nurtured by exhaustion, a comfortable bed and an incredible dinner at The Kitchen (http://thekitchencommunity.com/the-kitchen-boulder/).

Morning found me refreshed and again awake ahead of the alarm.  My friend and chauffeur, Jon, pulled up in front of the hotel at 5:45 AM to find me grinning over a cup of coffee.  Minutes later we pulled into the lot at Chautauqua Park as first light was creeping over the Flatirons, the five iconic sandstone landmarks that perch just west of town.


The Flatirons inhabit the east slope of Green Mountain which we would be ascending via the Gregory Canyon and E.M. Greenman trails before bombing down Ranger and returning to Chautauqua.   There would be no bombing (or falling) down, of course, until we'd navigated the 3.5 miles and 2,400 feet of gain to get to the top of Green.

Before leaving the parking lot, we chatted briefly with mountain stalwarts Peter Bakwin and Buzz Burrell on their way to scramble directly up the first Flatiron (in the photo above, the first is the prominent slab furthest to the right/North with the 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th Flatties trailing off to the left/South).  Just after Buzz and Peter left, we were joined by Sean who had made an early drive up from Denver to take part in the festivities.

Jon made the ascent look easy right from the start while Sean and I, um, didn't.  We did, however, keep on chipping away, running when we were able and power hiking when we weren't.  Compared to the prior morning, the trails were bustling with activity but there was a kindred spirit among runners and day hikers alike that made for great camaraderie.

As our group swapped stories I couldn't help but reflect upon life's fascinating intersections and my unlikely meeting of Jon a few years ago in Escalante, Utah and, separately, Sean in Cortez, Colorado in the Spring of last year.  In revisiting those introductions, I was reminded that it was while running with Sean during the fourth stage of TransRockies last August that we chanced upon Jonathan and all spent several miles together which had, of course, led to my reconnecting with him just the day before.

Any little diversion from the path that I'd followed both personally and professionally would likely have kept me from ever knowing any of these now good friends and to have met them in the first place, much less to have shared the experiences that we have since then, should not to be taken lightly.  As Jon, Sean and I tackled Green Mountain together, I took a moment to be thankful for, to marvel at, to praise the gifts of friendship.



Not that doing so made it any easier for my altitude-challenged lungs to function.  As usual, however, the body came around and the summit was reached with slow but steady progress.  We soaked in our surroundings, the warmth of the morning sun and were soon joined by Peter and Buzz who had made quick work of the First.  Their effort made our approach seem rather pedestrian, but my body assured me that we'd done work too.

We took one last look north and west toward the parade of mountain tops that spreads out for a hundred miles beyond, called out in detail on the peak-finder that inhabits the summit of Green.  I'd been somewhere out there yesterday, though I was too geographically challenged to say exactly where.


Not too much later, I was airborne with Sean as my witness.  The fall and subsequent tuck and roll hurt, make no mistake about that, but I was too enthralled with racing down the mountain with my friends to do anything more than get immediately back on my feet and resume the so-damn-fun pace that Jon was setting...that and knowing that it was in my best interest to just keep going as opposed to really getting a good visual on the damage done and giving my body a chance to stiffen in response.

The visual confirmation, the stiffening, that would come later in the day and, unfortunately, in the days that have followed.  But for a little while longer, that could wait.

I would wear the evidence of that lousy digger with pride, a badge of honor for having spent time in my favorite of ways with some of my favorite people on the planet.

Ya 'dig?

6.27.2013

best western?

While in Colorado last August to run TransRockies I, unwittingly, found myself as a cast member in what was affectionately (I think) dubbed the Year of the Beard.  Some guy by the name of Rob Krar was playing a similar role.


Well, sort of.

He was also busy tearing the ass out of the course with his partner, Mike Smith, ultimately winning the 6-day event by, um, a healthy margin.  A really healthy margin.

I, meanwhile, was picking myself up out of the dirt and thanking the heavens for having a teammate, Sean McCoy (love you, man), who didn't seem to take it too hard that we weren't going to be threatening anyone for the win.  He also good-naturedly overlooked the constant distraction that was my beard.

That beard didn't do me a bit of good with regards to the race itself, but it also may well have been the icebreaker that introduced me to Rob (and many others, for that matter).  I only ever actually saw him one time on course and even then only because there was an open, doglegged section of dirt road that let all of us middle-and-back-of-the-packers see he and Mike vanishing off into the distance.  Luckily, in Vail after the end of an exhausting Stage 5, I did get a chance to spend some time chatting with him and his now wife, Christina.

Beard or no beard, he was just good people.  She and he both.

A year later, Rob has made a major splash on the ultra-racing scene and is poised to be in the mix late in the day at his very first 100-mile race, a race that just happens to be the one and only Western States Endurance Run, arguably the most iconic hundred of them all.

It was my pleasure to recently hear in great detail Rob's journey from being an accomplished middle-distance track and field athlete in college to being a burned out and injured road runner and, eventually, reinventing himself as successful trail racer at increasingly longer distances.  Getting to retell that story on iRunFar in the days leading up to Saturday's big race was a joy and an honor that I will cherish.


Another joy, always, is helping the iRF team cover some of the most prestigious ultra races from around the globe, and Western States, of course, is at the top of that list.  With iRF founder Bryon Powell lacing up his kicks to take another crack at the course himself this weekend, those of us who help moderate the online race coverage will be paying that much closer attention to how the day plays out.

I'll do my best to be unbiased, but I must admit that I'll be pulling hard for Rob and Bryon to have the performances I feel they're both capable of having with the work they've put in and the talent they possess.

If you're enough of an ultra-junkie to keep revisiting your monitor screen for the latest updated over the many hours it takes for a 100 mile race to play out, you already know how great it is to have a resource like iRunFar to deliver (nearly) real-time peek ins.  For those of you who haven't checked in before, I encourage you to do so on Saturday.

Here's a link to iRunFar's live coverage of the 2013 Western States 100 which kicks off at 5:00 AM, PDT on Saturday morning:


Between now and then, you still have time to watch and listen to interviews with many of the race favorites, find out who race fans are predicting will vie for the win, and read a number of pre-race articles and historical features on the race.

See for yourself:


There will be an amazing collection of talent assembled at the Squaw Valley starting line and it will include grizzled veterans with 100-mile long resumes of trail success and some relative newbies with speedy credentials yet to be tested at 100 miles (count Rob among the latter).  Weather reports all seem to agree on sky-high temperatures that will surely impact the race, especially as the afternoon drags on and runners drop deeper and deeper into the canyons carved out by the American River.  And, as always, there's the history that is Western States animating every inch of the trail while awaiting the completion of another storied chapter.

I, for one, can't wait to "see" it all unfold.

5.20.2013

erithizon dorsatum: a day on the black forest trail

Hugs and kisses for the wife and kids saw me off and on my way north toward the village of Slate Run in the Pine Creek Gorge of northern Pennsylvania.  Home to a thriving hemlock sawmill in the late 1800's, Slate Run has long been forgotten by industry and is now most beloved by fly fishermen seeking native brook trout.  It's also well known by backpackers who come to travel the Black Forest Trail's rugged and remote 42.4 mile loop.


Consisting of one ascent and descent after another, the Black Forest Trail (BFT) normally takes backpackers 3-4 days to traverse and many hikers have had to take advantage of available cross trails to beat retreats when the terrain and the demands proved to be more than expected.  As someone who lives in Pennsylvania and sells backpacking equipment, it isn't the trail, despite its incredible beauty, on which I'd encourage newbies to attempt their first multi-day excursion.

That said, I was going to try and run it in one push as a training run for both the Laurel Highlands Ultra in June and, more distantly, my pacing gig for good friend Kelly Agnew at Leadville in August.  Everything I thought I'd need was packed into my Gregory Tempo 8 hydration pack.  This wouldn't be any "fastest known time" attempt and I fully intended to enjoy every second of my day outside of the confines of the office.  Rather randomly, I'd decided on taking a fairly pedestrian (from a running viewpoint) 12-15 hours to get all the way around.  If I could drag myself from sleep at the appointed 5:00 or 5:30 AM, that would surely get me back to my vehicle before the sun went down.  Hedging my bet, I'd carry a small headlamp to be safe.

But first I needed to sleep.  I pulled the car in behind another few vehicles parked just beyond the Slate Run trailhead, turned off the headlights and cut the engine.  It was just past eleven on Thursday evening. Ten minutes later, I was settled into my makeshift bedroom in the back of the Element and nodding off.  Just before passing out, I remembered to crack open a box of mothballs and slip them underneath the front of the car.

For those of you scratching your heads, mothballs are a pretty good way to ward off salt-seeking porcupines that prey upon vehicle undercarriages that have accumulated residue from the department of transportation's weather-fighting efforts during the winter months.  It might sound crazy, but it's true.  In case you're questioning my claims about the odd critter's cravings, here's a quote from the National Audubon Society's Field Guide to North American Mammals:

"Fond of salt, the Common Porcupine has a great appetite for wooden tool handles that have absorbed human perspiration through use." 

Some folks harbor fears about bears, mountain lions or half-crazed woodsmen, but my only concern was returning to the car on Friday evening to find cooling hoses or fuel lines gnawed through.  Mothballs on watch, I slept soundly.


I slept so soundly, in fact, that I had a tough time talking myself out of bed in the morning and was off to a later start than I'd planned.  I discovered that my Ambit was a bar short of being fully charged but decided against starting up the car for a full recharge as the day was already getting away from me.  I signed in at the trail register with a jovial "back before dark" and hit "start" at 6:22 AM.

Having decided on a counter-clockwise course that mirrored the direction taken by Chuck Dillon, the author of The Black Forest Trail: A Backpacker's Interpretive Guide, I was going to have to cross Slate Run right away which basically ensured that I'd have wet feet all day long.  DryMax Socks = no worries.

Just before wading in the water, however, I came upon a quartet of backpackers who'd banged out the loop in just 2.5 days but decided to spend one last night outdoors before heading back to civilization.  They seemed tired out but were in excellent spirits and had clearly had a wonderful trip.  I learned of a rattler encounter they'd had at one of the many rocky overlooks and swapped it's-a-small-world stories with Kathleen who turned out to be a trail runner herself.  It was a great way to start the day and a fine omen to go with the perfect weather.

There had been rain earlier in the week and water levels in all of the creeks seemed strong.  My initial water crossing was thigh-high and there were many places throughout the day where small opportunistic trickles of water snuck across the trail.  Despite the high streams and Spring runoff, however, the trail itself was in great shape.  With the exception of a few swampy spots here and there, the footing was ideal for the entire loop.


The day before, I'd made up my mind to not even check the time until well into the morning, as, once I've glanced at my wrist for the first time, I can get in the tiresome habit of checking it in what gets to seeming like 5 minute increments.  When that happens, I find myself wishing I'd never worn the watch in the first place.

I paused at nearly every available vista (which are frequent), stopped for 15 minutes to watch the least shy Pileated woodpecker I've ever seen go about his ham-ham-hammering and eventually ate a leisurely breakfast by an old forestry service cabin.  Finally I caved and was surprised to learn that I'd covered just over 13 miles before 10:00.  I hadn't seen another person since saying goodbye to the party at the trailhead. Without paying much attention, I was right on track for a daylight finish despite giving into just about every distraction the forest offered.

The temperatures were in the highest 40's/low 50's to start the day and perhaps climbed as high as the mid-to-high 70's later in the day.  Best of all, there was a merciful lack of humidity for a Pennsylvania May day.  What clouds were in the sky were few and almost cartoonishly non-threatening.

I'd checked the guidebook a time or two along the way and was pleased to find that my GPS was corresponding almost identically with the trail description.  The orange blazes were hard to miss and spaced evenly enough that I wasn't too concerned about a wrong turn, but it was still comforting to find that the guidebook was so on point.

Footbridge over Little Morris Run (mile 7.65)
As nicely as things were progressing, I had to remind myself that the most difficult sections of the trail would come later in the day.  The eastern side on which I'd started had begun with a 1000+ foot climb over the first 3 miles but except for a rocky descent between miles 6-8 and a fairly steep climb back up again over the mile that followed, much of the trail was smooth and rolling.  Once I got 25 miles into things, the downs would get steeper and so would the ups.  With no aid stations, drop bags or crew members to look forward to along the way, I needed to diligently monitor my condition and make sure that I had reserves in the tank.


By early afternoon, I'd taken a ton of photographs, enjoyed a second "meal" and was still feeling really strong.  I couldn't believe how many miles had passed without any discomfort or incident.  Water remained abundant and I had been able to refill and treat the water in my 2 liter hydration system and separate .75 liter Platypus bottle after having emptied them both while seemingly eating all day long.  My nutrition was good, I was well hydrated and I was past halfway.

All systems go.


An unsettling sound shook me from my gee-everything's-great midstride musings and I spun on my heels to see a rattler as thick as my forearm on the trail right where I'd run above it a second earlier.  Whether listless from what for the snake would still have been fairly cool temperatures or simply lacking any fear of my scrawny ass, the snake didn't show any intent of moving from its sun-dappled resting place and shook its rattle to tell me so.  I snapped a couple of photos, considered myself lucky and continued on my way with a bit more attention cast downwards than had been the case up to that point in the day.

After a long descent that crossed back and forth over Callahan Run followed by a steep climb up onto a rolling plateau, I was nearing the 50K mark of the run and though there was some initial fatigue, I still felt really positive and was holding to a 12-hour pace.  I came upon three weary backpackers at a sweeping vista looking south over Pine Creek.  We chatted for a bit and they attested that I was about to hit a long, steep downhill, the cause of their weariness as they were travelling in the opposite direction.


I was soon off again and ready to dig into the descent.  It began almost immediately, but after just a few switchbacks, I seemed to be moving across rather than down the ridge.  I was perplexed but assumed that the trail would again turn downhill before too long.  Strangely, the blazes continued to climb or at least hold the same position on the ridge for much longer than I would have expected.  There was no mistaking the orange blazes, however, so on I pushed.

Several minutes later I came upon an opening in the trees that looked identical to the overlook at which I'd conversed with the three backpackers.  If that was true, I was now headed in the wrong direction.  That didn't seem possible, so I kept going...until I heard voices that I recognized.  I slowed to a walk and continued just long enough to visually identify the bodies that belonged to those voices.

Angry with myself, I turned around and picked up my pace to try and make up the time and ground I'd just given away.  I soon discovered another backpacker nearing the top of the ridge and he assured me that the trail headed only downward from there and I soon saw where I'd made my mistake.  With head down the first time through, I had continued on past a switchback and, I'm guessing, stumbled through dumb-and-bad luck onto old blazes that preceded the existence of some of the current switchbacks.  Not only had I gotten off track, but I had also ascended the ridge in a steeper fashion than if I'd have been coming that direction in the first place.

Not cool.  And no one's fault but my own.

I was probably still chastising myself for my mistake when I made my next one.  There are a number of different colors of blazes in this section, as several trails overlap and share real estate. Having reached the bottom of the climb and the intersection with Naval Run, I blasted right by the spot where the BFT breaks away to the left and instead kept heading down the ridge.  One of these trails had red blazes and I somehow convinced myself that those red blazes were orange.

They were not.

By the time I realized that they weren't, I had a good bit of backtracking to do.  So much, in fact, that I talked myself into believing that I must have been on the right course in the first place after having retraced my steps ALMOST far enough to actually be back on track.  Finally, after wasting the better part of an hour or more, I managed to get back to where I should have hung a left if I had been paying the proper attention.  The intersection was clearly marked and the blazes couldn't have been more evident.

The Ambit told me that I was 34.5 miles into my journey.  The guidebook, which had been spot on all day, said 30.5.  I started the long climb up out of Naval Run with a lot of giddy up gone.

It wasn't until about 2 miles into what turned out to be a 3 mile climb that I realized I'd made yet another mistake, and a big one, down in Naval Run.  I was now nearly out of water and I'd passed up a perfect opportunity to refill.  I had ample food but gels, chews and energy bars don't digest very well without liquids.  There had been water, water everywhere all day long but I wouldn't see another drinkable drop for 4 more miles and by then I'd be in an all too familiar place, dehydrated and calorie-deficient.

When I did at last reach Little Slate Run, I refilled both water receptacles, dropped in Aquatabs and settled down on a log to wait the half hour for the water to be potable.  Sitting wasn't going to get me to the car any faster but asking much more of my body without some food and water seemed foolish.

Minutes passed.

I glanced over my shoulder at a rustling in the leaves and watched a porcupine finish its step down from a tree onto the floor of the forest.  Bemused, I grinned at its clumsy waddling...until I realized that it wasn't waddling all that slowly and was heading directly toward me.  I rose to my feet, moved several yards away and watched as the porcupine quickly filled the very space I'd just vacated.  It sniffed and scratched at the log before stepping off and making another step in my direction.  Realizing I didn't know nearly enough about porcupine behavior, I yelled something along the lines of "hey, hey, no!" and the creature halted immediately.  I have a suspicion that poor vision kept it from ever really seeing me in the first place, but the salt that I'd been excreting all day long and that by then clung to my dehydrated skin in white flakes had pied-pipered that quilled beast my way.

I was no wooden tool handle, but the next best thing.

Deciding not to linger any longer, I began the ascent up from Little Slate Run as the daylight began to fail.  I checked my GPS soon thereafter to find that I'd traveled more than 40 miles over the course of just over 13 hours.  Had I managed to avoid my earlier detours, I would have been right on schedule for a pre-sunset finish.  The battery's charge eventually died completely at 41.5 miles and left me in the dark in more ways than one.


It had stayed active long enough to confirm that enough time had passed for my collected water to be safe to drink.  I took several gulps, choked down half an energy bar and washed it down with a few more sips.  While the water may have been effectively treated, my stomach was already way out of whack and within 10 minutes it emptied itself out.

A seasoned puker, I let the spasms pass and then continued to slowly make my way along the trail.  After several minutes had transpired and aware of the fact that I needed to get something into my system, I sipped a little more water.

Out it came.

The sun was down and the GPS was dead.  I'd chosen the headlamp I had packed on the merits of it being lightweight and compact and I found myself wishing that I had been smart enough to tote a few extra ounces for the brightness it would have afforded me.  On the bright side (ha!), I was pretty sure that I was on the final climb with just three miles of flat and downhill to the finish.  I continued to puke up whatever I put in my body, but I was still making forward progress.

The trail began to descend and my spirits lifted slightly.  Those two flipped positions soon after as the BFT began climbing again and I realized all too clearly that I was only NOW reaching Foster Hollow and the start of the final creek-straddling half-mile climb.  I threw up again and this time it was just spasms and discomfort.  There wasn't anything else.

I paused in mid-trail for several minutes, bent over my trekking pole perch, before beginning again to shuffle forward.  The footing in this section was wet and uneven and I was struggling to pinpoint blazes in the feeble beam of my headlamp.  I was flat out exhausted.  Frustrated and exhausted.  If I could just rest for a bit, I knew I could knock out the last climb and stagger the last 3 miles.

It was then that I remembered the emergency blanket that was a required item for participation in the TransRockies Run (http://transrockies-run.com/).  I'd carried that thing for every step of those 120 miles and had continued to throw it in my pack ever since even though there'd never been any call for its use.  With temperatures probably hovering somewhere in the 40's, I wasn't sure I needed it now either but it sounded wise.  I peeled open the packaging, chose a relatively flat spot just to one side of the trail, again sipped a bit of water and lay down for a quick (I hoped) nap.  I don't even remember giving it much of a second thought or offering up any counter-argument.  That was the new plan.  Period.



Within an hour or so (I think), I woke up puking.  Whether it was from one last spasming of my stomach or from a nightmare of rattlesnakes crawling in under the space blanket and porcupines licking the salt from my face, I couldn't say.  I got up on an elbow, then to my knees and finally onto two feet.  I folded the blanket, slipped it back into my pack, flicked on my headlamp and began moving.

Locating the blazes during that climb was a challenge but even on shaky legs and with poor lighting, a half mile is still only a half mile and eventually it was behind me.  From there, the trail was remarkably easy to follow and, as promised, flat to start and then almost entirely downhill.  I was surprised at how much my head had cleared from that little bit of sleep and I actually spent less time feeling poorly for myself than I did pondering the resolve of any backpacker who had to start her or his 42-mile trek hiking up the steep trail that I was descending.

It was during that descent that I finally began to notice discomfort at the point where my shoes rubbed against my feet just before the toes and at the top where the tongues came into contact with the lowest portion of my legs, but I wouldn't really understand the extent of that carnage until the next day.


Otherwise, I walked away unscathed.

Back at the car, I turned on my cellphone.  I'd used it to set the time on my Ambit and it read 12:36 AM.  My back-before-sunset trip had ballooned from a lackadaisical 12-hour venture to an 18+ hour bumblefest with 4-5 bonus miles.  A better, more focused, less daydreamy runner could have done it in 7 hours, maybe even faster.

My amateur status, never in question, was reconfirmed.

But I was still intact, still grinning and, judging from the purr of the engine as I turned the key in the ignition, still in possession of a vehicle untouched by marauding porcupines.

4.28.2013

you just aren't very good at this, are you?

John Muir would've turned 175 years old yesterday IF physiology hadn't had its way, as it always does, and now long ago carted him from the planet and a civilization that was already careening further and further away from the beliefs he clung to so steadfastly.

He died in 1914 having barely caught a glimpse of what modernity and its technological breakthroughs could and would wreak and how broadly their impact would be felt by the natural world, but his words in many cases have hardly aged in the nearly 100 years since his passing.


“Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out going to the mountains is going home; that wilderness is a necessity...”

Amen to that, Mr. Muir, and by the early evening hours of Friday, April 20, this tired, nerve-shaken individual was "over" civilization and trying desperately to leave the world behind for a time.  Several hundred other minds and bodies were headed home to the mountains too, destined for either a 25 kilometer or 50 kilometer venture through the lovely deciduous forests of Clinton County, Sproul State Forest and Hyner View State Park.  Regardless of the distance covered, the individual journeys would be mercifully free of pavement, billboards and the endless stream of we-interrupt-this-broadcasts that had monopolized a soul-crushing week back in the "real" world.

The Hyner View Trail Challenge began back in 2007 as an as-demanding-as-they-come foot race/hike, boasting over 4,300 feet of gain (with just as much give-away in the quad-demolishing downhills) spread over 3 major climbs and 16 miles.  In 2012, an additional 25K loop was added for those folks who just felt there wasn't a high enough degree of difficulty, I suppose, on that original course.  Though the additional loop saves runners/hikers from having to retrace their steps and tackle those same 3 climbs twice around, it also adds two more significant uphill sections (another 3,200 feet of gain) and two punishing descents.


To say it more simply, it's brutally demanding at either distance and is softened only by the incredible beauty of the surroundings, the trails and the views provided at the top outs as well as, if you make it the whole way around the course, a rewarding finish line reached. 


Coming into the weekend, I couldn't have attested to the rewarding finish firsthand as my only prior attempt (back in 2011) ended prematurely when the Achilles issues I tried to ignore in the days leading up to Hyner were fully exposed and then amplified by all of that up and down.  My day ended 11 miles after the start and the only reward I received from the Pennsylvania DCNR-truck ride back to the finish was motivation to seek out a PT, Michael Beiler of Drevna Physical Therapy Associates, who helped put me back together and pass along advice and positivity that has stuck with me ever since.

Last year, I missed out on the inaugural 50K and a chance at redemption due to a too-good-to-pass-up canyoneering invite.  Even though that trip to southeastern Utah was one to remember, a little bit of my psyche ached during the several hours that I knew folks were grinding their way up Humble Hill, navigating Johnson Run, plowing down the Post Draft and approaching the final steep section known as the SOB.

Now, at last, it was my turn and I was pretty pumped to have another go at the Challenge.


My pal Jefferson, who was running the 25K, and I had tented at the Western Clinton Sportsmen's Association the night before which meant being able to sleep almost right up to race time, wake up, lace on shoes and walk a few hundred yards to the starting line.  The finish line sits on the WCSA property and our tent would be less than a football field away in case returning immediately to bed seemed like the ideal post-race option.

There were so many familiar, friendly faces waiting for the gun that it was almost hard to keep in mind that this was a "race", but eyeballing the couple of speedsters also gathered there, it was comforting somehow to know that the rest of us could actually just leave the racing to them.  Discovering that my children were there too, having spent the night before with my mother, stepfather, aunt and uncle at the cabin my uncle owns a few miles south of nearby Renovo, I really felt as though my "homecoming" was complete.

Eight o'clock arrived and off we went over the bridge that crosses the west branch of the Susquehanna River and then hung a sharp right, put a few hundred yards of pavement behind us and began working our way back along the north bank of the river on a narrow stretch of singletrack for a mile or two.  Laughter and chatter accompanied the tightly-clustered pack behind the leaders and as often happens the initial pace was brisk.

Humble Hill has a way of snuffing out brisk.  Rising steeply, immediately steeply, from just before mile 2, this climb takes you from 620 or so feet above sea level to right around 2,000 feet before you reach mile 4.  I'd brought collapsible Black Diamond Distance Z-Poles with me, something I've never used before during a race, and I was glad to have them.  While they didn't make me go any faster, they allowed me to take the "hunch" out of my back on ascents and by being able to stand more upright I could top out not nearly as fatigued as I suspect I would have without them.

Hell, I was still smiling as I neared the Hyner View vista that gives the park its name.

Photo courtesy of Peter Lopes
My family, having hopped in the car and taken the easy route to the summit, was waiting with smiles and heads shaking at how ludicrous it was that us bib-wearers had opted to trek there on foot.  After hugs all around, I got back to work.

Just beyond the aid station tables, a right-hand turn leads you back into the woods and onto singletrack that actually descends 1,000 feet in less distance than it was gained in the preceding miles.  It's a nice change but there's no shaking the fact that you are giving away nearly everything you just worked so hard to conquer.  Determined to keep my quads intact, I fell back quickly on the group that I'd stuck with on the initial climb.

The route levels out for a bit down in Reickert Hollow but the going is still challenging as miles 5-7 force you to cutback and forth across Johnson Run more times than I managed to count.  Back in 2010, I bagged the crossings and stayed in the creek to relieve the swelling that was building in my damaged arch and heel.  I gained some confidence this year in not having to seek the same solace.

Somewhere in the hollow, the 50K course splits away from the 25K course and begins another long and steep climb up the Sledgehammer.  I'd stashed my poles in my Gregory Tempo running pack after reaching Hyner View but quickly pulled them back out for this stretch.  An aid station was mercifully waiting at the top and I wolfed down PB & J's like they were a rarely-tasted delicacy.  The next mile-and-a-half was one of the few rolling-to-flat sections on the course, following one of the broad cleared-for-pipelines sections that lurk atop a staggering amount of northern Pennsylvania ridgelines.  It was easy running and a welcome reprieve following the effort already demanded and ahead of what was to come later in the day.

We hit another beautiful downhill that seemed to go on forever, switchbacking over and over again and it was in this section that I began feeling as though I just wasn't getting anywhere.  I wasn't particularly fatigued and the body was holding up nicely, but I just couldn't seem to move along at the pace that it seemed this stretch of the race would allow.  I was struggling to keep up with other runners even when the shared conversation was of interest and would've been great distraction.  Periodically, someone would pass me and every now and then I'd be caught from behind by two or three runners who seemed to be out for an afternoon jog.  I wanted to be THOSE guys.  Some days I am, but not today.

Not here at Hyner.

A low mental patch was threatening when I had a clear, liberating thought.  "You just aren't very good at this, are you?"  I'm not sure what brought on the question but I laughed aloud and immediately felt the blahs seep away.  The answer, of course, is/was "no, not really", but that's not what had brought me there in the first place.  My mind was back where it needed to be.

Moments later, I'd reached the bottom of the descent and turned left into the absolutely stunning Ritchie Run.  Aesthetically, this was my favorite part of the entire course.  The trail meandered its way from one side of the creek to the other and back again.  And again.  It was a really technical, wet uphill but I just marveled at how beautiful a place in the world it was and here was the first time that the "wilderness is a necessity" line began echoing in my consciousness.  I'm not sure I needed to be there, but I was so thankful that I was.

After leaving Ritchie Run behind, I auto piloted for a few miles and, frankly, don't recall many of the details.  I might have if the hospitality at the West Branch Nature Conservancy Camp aid station hadn't flushed everything from my short term memory, replacing it was carbonated beverages and hot, delicious soup.  Roughly twenty miles into the race at this point, I was craving sustenance, whether I knew it or not, and that soup was heaven sent.  As I think about it now, the glory of mid-race soup is a reoccurring theme for me at ultras.  Here's hoping that never changes and that the kind, selfless souls who have come to my rescue so many time either continue to be out there or have like counterparts on every long course I find myself.

The next few miles passed pleasantly as the little bit of climbing paled in comparison to what had come before and then we returned to the lollipop stick that had led away from the 25K course and were able to take the Sledgehammer down instead of up.  My quads still felt surprisingly good and I ran this section fairly well, actually passing a couple of runners and catching up to another.

I'm pretty sure I gave all of those positions right back after returning to where we'd left the 25K loop earlier in the day and having to creep up the narrow, messy, technical trail that climbs up along Johnson Run to the highest point on the 25K course.  The poles really shined in this section.  Again, they didn't actually haul me up the hill or quicken the pace but the balance and stabilization they provided my tiring legs was much appreciated.

At the top out, with the penultimate ascent out of the way, I made sure to drink a lot at the awaiting aid station.  I knew that I was about to hit another rocky, rooty downhill before tackling the final climb of the day and reaching the last aid station before the finish.  The Post Draft trail cuts downwards steeply along the side of a ridge and has tricky footing the entire way.  It had signaled the end for me two years ago and I was curious to find what it had to tell me now.

Mere moments after leaving the aid station, I was caught from behind by Robert Gusztaw who is headed to TransRockies (http://transrockies-run.com/) this summer with his wife, Janine.  Knowing I'd run the 6-day stage race last year, they'd introduced themselves briefly at the starting line.  It was nice to spend the Post Draft descent talking of the Rockies and I found myself excited anew for my August return to TRR.

Thanks to the conversation and the little psychological bump that came from catching 25K participants (they'd started an hour behind us that morning) from behind made this stretch go quickly and we continued to chat in the first portion of the climb out of Cleveland Hollow.  I couldn't help but notice the spot at which my Achilles had finally called it quits two years ago and while my mind stayed there for a minute or two, I fell behind a few steps and was again on my own.  There were quite a lot of 25K hikers on this climb and did my best to politely sneak past them without taking away from their experience or forcing them to step into inadvisable positions on the steep, narrow trail.

Practically on all fours, I scrambled the dreaded SOB at the top of the hill and stumbled on to the flat above, instantly struck by the gusting winds buffeting the volunteers staffing the final aid station nestled there.  The idea of them sitting there for hours in those conditions was humbling and I took a few moments to thank each and every one of them.

There was another mile or so of slight uphill that seemed like flat after the SOB and then the Spring Trail led straight down the mountain.  In two miles, the trail loses somewhere in the vicinity of 1,300 feet as it follows Huff Run toward the Susquehanna and I was thrilled to have quads enough to really power through it.  It was too little too late to make my overall time very impressive but I would rank that downhill in my own personal top 3 for both my performance and the fun that was had while doing it.  Didn't expect to feel that good after 28 miles at Hyner, but, man, I was glad I did.

I spent just about everything I had left there in Huff Run and found myself alternating between shuffling and walking back across the bridge before turning down the lane toward the WCSA.

Spirits were high at the finish line and it was awesome to be reunited with most of the friends who I'd started with or who had seen us off so many hours earlier.  Learning that my speedy friends, Jesse Johnson and Derek Schultz, had finished first and second with Jesse cracking 5 hours and establishing a pretty stout 4:55:19 course record.  The soon-to-be-ultra-running-household-name Ashley Moyer finished third overall, just 43 seconds behind Derek's 5:15:07 and nearly an hour ahead of the second-place female, Sheryl Wheeler.

My 7:29:12 put me right smack in the middle of the pack, a cozy position I've come to love that came without a trophy but secured the same finisher's medal as everyone else who made it the whole way 'round the mountain.


Most of the race participants departed a few hours later, but Jefferson and I again spent the night at the WCSA after driving back up for another, less taxing summit of the Hyner View vista.  Very early Sunday morning, I reluctantly snuck from the tent to relieve myself of some of the prior day's hydration.  The sky, free of ambient light pollution, was bursting with stars and whether from my emergence from the tent or something else entirely, a coyote's cry pierced the silence.  The call was answered by another and then two more in some sort of wild nocturnal responsorial that fell silent moments later, leaving only the distant sound of the waters of the Susquehanna seeking the Chesapeake Bay.  I remembered John Muir, grinned and returned to the tent, falling almost instantly back to sleep.

 I can't wait to go home to Hyner again next year.

4.10.2013

axis mundi.

I've spent a good portion of the last few days shooting video for my place of work, Backcountry Edge.  These clips are basically short duration demonstrations of various tents, backpacks, sleeping bags and other outdoor gear or, as I prefer to think of it, filming these bits is a cross between playtime and learning, for me, and, eventually, for someone trying to get a more multi-dimensional view of a given item than a flat, lifeless product page on a retail website can provide.

It's fun, really, and serves as a nice physical escape from the office which is especially convenient when the weather decides to take a significant turn for the better, as it has this week.

But, this go round, the entire process has made me oddly restless.  Putting up a tent and expounding on its finer points has me wanting to be in that very tent somewhere a bit more exotic than a mile away from my desk.  Blowing up a sleeping pad, I find that I want to spend the entire night on the pad, preferably under a Western sky full of stars, stars, endless stars.  And the sleeping bags, the backpacks, the trekking poles, the you-go-ahead-and-name-its, they've all got me wanting to not just talk about their functional aspects but to put them to good and practical use somewhere far away from an all-too-handy and invasive cell signal.

All of which adds to my current longing for mountains and reminds me of a paragraph from Gretel Ehrlich's Questions of Heaven:

"Are mountains really mountains?  Are mountains a form of enlightenment?  Are rivers a mountain running?  Can we walk through them?  Why do mountains walk through us?"

I don't know the answers and, like all my favorite questions, they may not even have one or, at least, JUST one.  What fun is a question, anyway, if it's too easily answered?  Not as fun as one that isn't, this I know.

Today the mountains are walking through me and yet remain all too distant.  I miss them immensely.   I want to go to them.  To BE with them.  Not to race through them and head home, but to race to them and make them home.

I don't even need the gear.  Gear without the mountains is just trappings.  Mountains without the gear are still the connection points between earth and sky that pull me like so many magnets.


I'll get there...and when I do, I won't be back.